[2020/03/25] Today I graduated, and playing games, significantly Warframe played a big role in it
I would like to post my gratitude to Warframe community and devs for their support, even though probably unknowingly given, during my times of difficulty.
4 years ago I entered a graduate study program in biomedical science, and I came in very enthusiastic to study about science and stuff. But as I slog through, I found many challenges that were heartbreaking such as loss of a family member, many many failed experiments, theme taken over by competitor and even the most recent covid19 casting difficulty in scheduling for thesis defenses.
End of year 1, was very challenging. I felt like I made the wrong choice and that I wasted my time. I felt left behind and slowly realized how useless I was as a human being in the grand scheme of things. I constructed a PC from 2nd hand parts and looked for games to play. I stumbled upon Skill Up's Warframe review and jumped in because, well, because it was free. As I played, I found that I was invigorated by that sense of progression in the game, even though slow...At first i was afraid to ask for help, but even solo i was able to obtain my first prime (Broberon prime)! after that, i was more open to chat in sessions and was pleasantly surprised with many funny moments and very polite replies. That feeling of progression fed me enough energy to repeat MANY MANY experiments and upgrade them slowly. In many experiment settings I imagine changing the factors in it like changing mods in a warframe, or choosing the right warframe for the right mission, and it really helped my mental clarity to continue working.
Then my IRL friends joined in. We were in different countries, but we reconnected in Warframe. I tried to make new friends in the country I studied in, But there is just a different kind of need to communicated with friends from the same country, i cant really explain it. There were weekends where we went online and opened some alcoholic beverage while communicating about our lives through discord and simultaneously massacre waves of grineer/corpus/infested while cracking open relics. This provided such a support system to just move forward, y'know? through many failures, I again found the way to fuel myself forward and solve new problems in the lab.
I realize different people have different methods of coping. Honestly, I spent near 1000 hours of warframe, and i am open minded enough to expect some people saying, "well if you spend 1000 more hours in your graduate studies, you would have been more successful". That might be true for others, but it surely wasn't for me. I literally felt myself sunk into the void as I kept drilling in the lab trying to find a solution and failing to do so led me to a dark vicious cycle of anxiety and self doubt. Playing warframe, interacting with clan members, helping them get new warframes and myself discovering new ways to play the game allowed me to escape that corrosive mind of mine.
I admit i have been slowed down in the railjack progress and most probably is not ready to join the scarlett spear event due to the final steps of the graduate program. But even during that, I had no anxiety of feeling left out.. because Warframe provided more of a homey feeling. That somehow, I could still catch up. And even if I dont have the absolute minmax builds, my Tenno/warframe is adept enough to help through some of the toughest content. Worst come to worst, I can still contribute by helping new Tennos open their solar system or help them farm here and there.
So...thank you Warframe. Thank you DE. Thank you Little Duck. Thank you Konzu. thank you many others. and thank YOU Tenno.
4 years ago I entered a graduate study program in biomedical science, and I came in very enthusiastic to study about science and stuff. But as I slog through, I found many challenges that were heartbreaking such as loss of a family member, many many failed experiments, theme taken over by competitor and even the most recent covid19 casting difficulty in scheduling for thesis defenses.
End of year 1, was very challenging. I felt like I made the wrong choice and that I wasted my time. I felt left behind and slowly realized how useless I was as a human being in the grand scheme of things. I constructed a PC from 2nd hand parts and looked for games to play. I stumbled upon Skill Up's Warframe review and jumped in because, well, because it was free. As I played, I found that I was invigorated by that sense of progression in the game, even though slow...At first i was afraid to ask for help, but even solo i was able to obtain my first prime (Broberon prime)! after that, i was more open to chat in sessions and was pleasantly surprised with many funny moments and very polite replies. That feeling of progression fed me enough energy to repeat MANY MANY experiments and upgrade them slowly. In many experiment settings I imagine changing the factors in it like changing mods in a warframe, or choosing the right warframe for the right mission, and it really helped my mental clarity to continue working.
Then my IRL friends joined in. We were in different countries, but we reconnected in Warframe. I tried to make new friends in the country I studied in, But there is just a different kind of need to communicated with friends from the same country, i cant really explain it. There were weekends where we went online and opened some alcoholic beverage while communicating about our lives through discord and simultaneously massacre waves of grineer/corpus/infested while cracking open relics. This provided such a support system to just move forward, y'know? through many failures, I again found the way to fuel myself forward and solve new problems in the lab.
I realize different people have different methods of coping. Honestly, I spent near 1000 hours of warframe, and i am open minded enough to expect some people saying, "well if you spend 1000 more hours in your graduate studies, you would have been more successful". That might be true for others, but it surely wasn't for me. I literally felt myself sunk into the void as I kept drilling in the lab trying to find a solution and failing to do so led me to a dark vicious cycle of anxiety and self doubt. Playing warframe, interacting with clan members, helping them get new warframes and myself discovering new ways to play the game allowed me to escape that corrosive mind of mine.
I admit i have been slowed down in the railjack progress and most probably is not ready to join the scarlett spear event due to the final steps of the graduate program. But even during that, I had no anxiety of feeling left out.. because Warframe provided more of a homey feeling. That somehow, I could still catch up. And even if I dont have the absolute minmax builds, my Tenno/warframe is adept enough to help through some of the toughest content. Worst come to worst, I can still contribute by helping new Tennos open their solar system or help them farm here and there.
So...thank you Warframe. Thank you DE. Thank you Little Duck. Thank you Konzu. thank you many others. and thank YOU Tenno.
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